My love hate relationship.

I have a love hate relationship with holidays.  Mainly for one reason.  And mainly for a selfish reason.

Holidays are for families.

But what if you don't have the society's take on a family (you know, the 2.5 children, white picket fence and the dog), what are you and your husband?  Are you a family?  Are you a couple?  Some couple decide not to have children.  We, as a society, have to be okay with that.  Some couples struggle for years to get pregnant and don't choose to live a childless life.  Some couples foster children who may be returned to their biological parents.  Some foster children will be placed into a forever home to be adopted.

I know that we are creating a family by adopting Little Sweetie.  I know that we making a difference in her life.  To hear her say "Happy Daddy's Day" to Jeremy this morning melted my heart.  But it also made me tear up.

For those dads who are in heaven.

For those men who want more than anything to be a dad.

For the dads who take a father role to children that are not biologically theirs.

For the moms who raise children on their own because a man didn't step up to be a father.

We love Little Sweetie and can not wait to have that paper in our hands that say she is legally ours.  She has made our family whole.  I know that my Dad in heaven is watching over us and I know that he would love her to pieces.  I am so lucky to have had my Dad for 25 years!  I wish I could have him for 25 more!!

Love you Dad!

Check, Check, and CHECK!

Checking off the boxes.

Filling out the paperwork.

Sitting in a training for two days.

Those three things have been our life the past few months.  We are getting closer and closer to finalizing the adoption.  To say that we are happy is not the truth.

We are THRILLED!   We are beyond happy!!  We have no words to explain how we are feeling.

Does it mean that we aren't scared? Nope.  We have moments of fear.  The unknowns are scary.  What unknowns could there be?

What if the adoption falls through?
What if the judge says no?
What if something shows up the day before adoption?
What do we do when B starts asking questions?  How do we answer them?
What if the answers we give her don't satisfy her need to connect to her birth family?
What if she has more needs in the future that we didn't know about at this time?

......and the list could go on.

We know through the training that we sat through the last two days that we have post adoption resources that we will have to utilize if need be.  Jeremy and I say all the time how thankful and blessed he are to have such wonderful support from friends and family.  We also know that we may have to use other support systems.  And that is okay.   We will be okay with that.

Hopefully, in my next update, I will be able to tell you the day of the adoption!  I can wait to share photos of B and the things that we have done in the last year!

Until next time.......