The Ups and Downs

We received a call on Wednesday from our county social worker.  She said that they was a "possible placement" of a six week old baby and would we be interested if the baby needed a placement.  I called her back as soon as I could and told her "Yes, we would be interested".  I may or may not have then emailed her to tell her the same thing.

Then we waited.


And waited.


And waited some more.


Then I got an email on Thursday from the Social Worker stating that the infant didn't need a placement at this time, but that she would keep us in mind if the situation changes.


I tried so incredibly hard not to get up my hopes up.  I keep repeating "possible" "possible" all night long.  I didn't want to be crushed when the placement wasn't needed..........

........But I did.

Yet, I am very thankful that this child didn't need a placement.

It is such a double edged sword.  We would love to grow our family--whether through adoption, fostering, biological--it doesn't matter.  Also, we would love to be able to provide a sibling for Braylin.

So, we wait again.  We wait for another message and we wait to see if it is "possible" or a "for sure" placement.  The roller coaster starts all over again.