Wonder

{{Wonder}}

Definition as a noun:  a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration, caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar, or inexplicable

Definition as a verb: desire or be curious to know something

I often wonder about many things in my life:

*What should we have for supper?

*When is a child at school going to listen?

*Why did something happen?

*What is the reason for this or that?

*How long will Braylin sleep in on a Sunday morning?

*Can this work for the better?  Or is it going to make things worse?

Then I wonder about other things.  Things I shouldn't wonder about.  Things that make me wonder and stress more.  How do you stop wondering?  

I wonder if I am enough.  Enough for my husband?  Enough for my child?  Enough for my students?  Enough for my friends?  Enough for my job?

I wonder if Braylin will understand our choices, our decisions?  I wonder if her birth family will understand our choices?  We love her more than anything in the world.  We are blessed beyond what I ever thought that we would be blessed with.  And even with that, I still wonder.

And now I wonder if we are to be that lucky again?  Will we get chosen again? Would we be blessed again?  I hope it is true and that it happens again.  

But for now, we love the memories and live in the moment.